the epic of HER.

IM BACKKKKKKK!

2006-04-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

ngahhaa!
im here again! :P kehakehka lamak gila babi dah x add blog tok. i was seriously fckin bz ok. seriousss matter! eheuhaea. oh yea so many things happened! pesta tanjong dah pun limpas ey. so much stuff i wanna mention ba tp ntah la dapat ka sik. me ada crisis ngan jeries friend named esah beybled. wakkakakak calie ey! and thennnnnn. pesta tanjongg! :DD they all came except for dhammie. aiye. amy ina azie n ctot follow me. mlm befo pesta tanjong ya la paling besh. azie n ctah with me gi soping beli baju. dah la singgah rah it mlm ya knak tego sapie bab me k ju biru instead of merah. and i saw jeman wearing that blue sweater. hwuaaaa! tp xpalah, at least dat sweater is still around ho. :P kehakea. time pesta tanjong ya mekorg g paxen after that. greeted shieera dr jaoh. oh ya, im friends with her now. :DD i luff her ok! heuaheha. gado gk ngan jerie. tp ntah la. memory yang sikpat dilupak was when mekorg jalan dr pelita siya to paxen! me jerie apen ctah lan amy mona ~ :D yey! hepi gilaks ok. ngehhee. kakya apa gik jadi oww? euro themepark ya dah xda gik. my family went there except for me! me pegi blvd with ctah cuz there was this af thingy goin on. i met zani wandy apen n allllll. dan ahernya aku diat omie. kekekeke. dah lamak2 ya bok me jumpa jerie. weeee. tp sekejap jak ba. :(( hwuaa! bodo laki sowang ya pegang tangan owang skati. cibaii mena eyh. ishh! ahh poget it. me and abie still not talking to each other tegal nya mabok sabtu dolok ya. haihh. time ya delie sol. tp nya dah mintak maap n janji x ulang gk! ntah la eyy. malas jwak pk gk ehh. susah susah aja! hermmm. last nite i met jerie. weeeeee :DDDDD first ya he came with juwan. ekahkea i was feeling down. then he went back and he came back again! uwaaaa i lebbb him so mass ohey! mwahss mwahss. oh yea, did i mentioned b4? me g tganu ya, i met jimmy shanley! not just that. i even talked n walked with himmmmmmm. hwuaaaa!! besh eghh. wkahekahek aand now i deleted my myspace acc. ekahkea bla bla ok laa thats all! bodo ini blogggy. muwahss ol!
♥ aiyeen

the whole week!

2006-02-25T15:27:00.000+08:00

hermm.. its saturday! :D ngeheee. the whole week sukan ey. and i only came on thursday n friday. yabey and now me sekda suara! huwaaaaa. :( ya suk bena bteriak eyy. rd got second. yay! khemah pun menang second. kawad pun menang second. and HOWS THAT! :D ya suk shoutin here and there. hepi gila babeng ba seman drop last. ngiehaieha. o yehh o yehh. gila eyy. kehakheka. marek la besh eyy. dah me dtg k ju rentap tp ilek rah dhoby siya. ekaheka! james gilaaaa. ngahahah. me dr awal sampe abis sukan, ngembak pompom sebelah. baju ukan maen gik rentap tp maok tauk, pom2 wana biru eyh. hekhek! first dtg dah rawon2 ey. teriak siya sitok. spent time with aren cuz of some serious matter. ntah la anak ya eyh! adooooehaiii. dahya, katik2 wong cuz nya jadi maskot k ali ba. ninja turtle! ekahekhakea. sapa soh terbuncoi buncoi siya. nyaman nyakk. :D and time cdak ya berkawad, me sempat ilek with fahan. with azie oso. gosh i really missed him ba. naseb nasebb ehh. gila peloya nak mati nya ya ey. wasehh! and time final yea, me ilek with affiezal. started calling him mamat now. wahahhaah! ngegeh la dat lil boii. adoehaii. :D sukan was great ohey!

ngaaaa. the whole week kinda tiring la. this monday da start mock exam. me tgh blaja sebenanya tek tp ntahla bila pat masok lam palak smua pengetahuan ya ehh. geram da jak eyy. ekahekahkea. kaktok la sambong balit. dah alias camtaik babi jak. geram jak eh. riya me ngamok ba. aheuhaea. paloi alu keja eyy. ngaa! btw, my lebly dhammie broke up with dapie. :\ ntah la ey napahal. and guess what? yassina with jemannnnnn ba. ehek ehekkk. blesses jak la k! o yey o yey. saket sowaaaaaa baaa. cibaii ba eyh. apa ka ow! bah bah bah. kuitting yea. sambong blaja kot. hekhek. mwash mwash!

FULLYthought.

2006-02-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

its monday and im sittin here alone with the song abadi playing on the winamp. seriously, i hv nothin else better to do than to just sit around. yeh, few details here. im wearing long sleeve gray shirt, and jeans. went to airport early tonight to pick up dad. yah, they came back from bintulu ysterday and that typical nite too, he went to kch again. bz bz him. herrmmm. yeah, went to schl todey but things seem to passed so fast and i wonder why? sukan daa start but yeh, i din showed up todey. malas bangat eh. hekhek so i went back home and guess what i did? i studied bio! fark men. thats creepppyy. wayy beyond creepy huh? ngaa. :D

saturday. :) i spent for almost 7 hours with him. *hearts* yeah, he was there. all that night. by my side. sat by my side. laying right next to me. arghh. missed that moment already. donno why but when im with him, time flies by too fast. faster than ever and that sucks ok? :( i let out many stuffs to him. what im worried and pissed at. i feel kinda relieved now. ngaaaaa. seriously, im so in love with himm. stuffs i said to him, i rili do mean it. when he was there, everything seems perfect. theres nothing to worry about. esp when hes lying there by my side. x) ngaa. those are memories to be kept. and now i miss him oready. :( juan came over to asked him to go back. aiye. setgh gila oreadi me but, argh. its ok. :)) hopefully theres owez a next time kn? aiye. donoo la. things are so mixed up now. i left my fs hanging there. guess im tired of everything now rite? yeah yeah. dono wot i really need anyway. i just wanna be healthier! :((

i dont wanna wake up from this fallen time. jush let me fall in luff k? :)

roses are red! ;)

2006-02-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

and violets are blue! :)) heheh.. ku asa pc tok da maok meletop ba. aiye! gila keja aehh. :P auwww ~ had an okay week eyh. ada smangat skit ku mok blaja these past few days ~ ehahueha! adoehaii. weyy weyy. valentines day. :P he was around! weeeeeeeeee :D besh egh! ekahekhakea. he took mai lebly bantal bawuu ba x( tp xpa, he gave me his! ekahkehakea. bawuuu ba. ngegeh mena. ekahekhakea. and i got chocs n pinq teddy. i gave him the disc. :D he loves it! and we even exchanged bags. sama jenis ba bag di beli yea. :D besh da jak egh!ngaa ngaa. adoehaii. tudei i xda masok kelas kimia. tolong james ngan cindy design baju rd eh. santek eh. dah ngek ada jak james aihh! gila babeng mena. adoo. sik tauk ilak pa mok pdh. tumoro parents gi btu ba. adohaii. eh eh. chow bebehs!! :D

SERAness.

2006-02-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

its sunday and gona start skoolin tomoro! dammmmmmnn. i didnt come to skool last saturday but that night went out with few friends ;; ctah, azie, sha, shereen, and SERA! and thr comes ajiz n farish. hehe. we had a great night i tell ya.firstly dtg ya me with ctah. sey go picked up azie n sha. keta cdak nang blkg keta mekorg jak time reach main entrance paxen. awwww MISSED SEYRA! shes gettin prettier ogeyh ! ekahkea. then we went straight to mcD and eat. we were all laughin like what and exchanging stories. heuahuehauhea. lawak eys. yesh had a great time eh. indu baaaa........!! kehakea. kakya rawon2 dalam ya. sha balit dolok and then bok azie. sey anta mekduak ctot balit. kekeke. shereen is crazy ok! eheh and oh yea, i jln k handbag ba. shereens. :D ngek aeh! ado ado. ilang jwak sket indu ngan sey. dah nya pdh me too obvious anti ngan skool. ekkeke :p ngek mena sey eyh! ekaheka. upss. =D todey met delie at blvd. dah tapok dr kita. ngek mena aeh! takpujik. mysinta came over todey. wah! XD dono la ey. crazy me ba. adeyh adeyh. tek baru abis burn lagu yaa eyh. =S ekaheka. boreng eh. dah esok start skola agik. dahla stayback. wahhh!! bosannyerrrrrrrrrrrr. okeh la eh. boring daa!

tuesday afternoon.

2006-02-07T16:13:00.000+08:00

came back from school few hours ago. anddd i mish you like hellll. hahaha! :D oh yea, yeh yeh so many stuffs happened and yep, besday achot just passed by. had azie and ctah coming over helping me. we were so tired dat im wayy stressed out. glad jerie was "around" to accompanied me. hahaha! mekorg tiga went to farishs house and rilek2 siya sat. then i went back home with azie then trus anta nya pulangg. aiye, i was so fcukin tired balit dr sia cuz i was wearing girly sandals to boulevard. mwahahha XD gila ey. i missed parkson! ngaaaa :P saturday din go out cuz jerie came over. i tell you, gila ey dat day. ehkehek. we were jush joking around yea, i admit, we had a very good time spent together. :P but then sumthing happened and i left him going back home. tp nasebbbb. haha. i tried to reach him but failed so I HAFTA called luiz. so i did. and he came back. :P weeeeeee. gila me ey. ehuaheuha. and now, skool starts again! im bored........... very very ok! dono when will ol dis stuff goin to be over! huwaaaa. yesterday stayed back and it turns out, i was so fcukin tired lash nite! demm it. aughh. i better get out now.

strawberry gashes

2006-02-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

its night and yeeh, i was left alone with this little ones. :) dad and mum went shopping and nurul gi skola nya ntah pa benda majlis ya and im currently sms-ing with marshie. i was supposed to finish up my homework jush now when i started making teh tarek and yea, jerie called. :D wanna meet him again again again! yesterday i went out with mira, nurul, ctah n azie. ehueha. but then hung out with jerie *wee* heuehauhea! we went to cineplex and watched buli balik and i tell ya that movie was hilariousss. hahaha! calek ok. met syakila and deybie and yesh they smiled. :P weeee! tiut da jak dak duak ia ehs. asa cam tua dr me maka miak gik ba. ohok ohok. met alfian oso yesterday. gah! ntah ar mun da papa nya nyampey ke ustaz or whatsoever. me tok pesen ready jak la. dolok alfian ya pun pnah ba. holding hands with im. bwehk! boh ngada nak carik masalah ngan aku. ehek ehek. waa! missed jerie oreadi. i jush wanna meet him rite now ba. ya ngegeh juwan ya awal alu jak amik nya. :P ehekehekea. jush now jerie told me to delete that mirul guy from my maispes. ingatkan me k. tp mena jwak ehs. nyelak ba miak ya. bsayang2 indah. tumbok jak lak sak tebik gigi nyak wai. ahak ahak! ngekk mena. adoi adoi. bowink dey. i told jerie about me hampey minum ya. tp me xda pdh nya sal okok ya. takut eh! cmok polahhhh gikkkkkkkkk! takut eh. waaa. i need mira bah. ado ado! apa gaya tok ehs. and i miss segha ok! aiyoyo. homeworks btimbun agik. ngaiii kami ehs. bah bah. muahs!!

Excuse Me, Pls?

2006-01-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

its finally holiday! ngeeeeee :D haha. i just got back from parkson. aww im kinda sleepy dey. mira is here with me, might be sleepin over here tonite. geez! yesterday was abie n acai's besday party. back from school, kak watie picked me up and we go pick up azie. :P hehe! and then ngeeee, i went to jeries house, go bring him altogether. but seriously, that was a bad idea. :(( we fought again last nite! shitttttss. he went home and messaged me and his message seems like lettin me go. i dont know anything that time i was so stressed out. i went outside with acai n gjoule. go lepaking blakang umah ya. it was kinda cold and chilly night last night. i smoked a puff or two. :\ yea yea i know, i hv broken the promise. what shud i do? yea, i regretted everything seriously did but i was so damn low cuz of jerie. i need to do sumthing to satisfy myself so i smoked! omaigod i know im stupid ok. i felt so guilty with him. x( dono what will happen if he knows. grrr! im sick of myself. after puffing few times, i dgr and layan jak cita acai n gjoule bout creepy ppl around tudan. it did scared me a lil bit. ngeheh. kus semangat eh. nabes jwak asa bah. :P so went inside and azie and abie went outside. i nearly gotten drunk! omaigod. i din know that was aek bla bla shiet but i realise em from the bawuu. mira halang me to minum. wah, keemoan ku hampir melanda. gila eh. im glad im still normal and i can still think warasly. :(( it was almost 3 am when i started falling to sleep. and woke up in the morning reading jeries sms. sheesh. i cried, again n again. so i decided to just let go. x( maybe im hoping too much on him and yesh, it hurts both of us. bee! then when he replied, he started saying stuff that showed me he don wanna let go of me. :/ life is so complicated, dont u think? gah!! but then went to parkson today with kak watie and all of em, jerie went to me when i was upstairs with lalink *hearts* and yeh he talked to me and we did walked together :P wee haha! everything is fine now and settled down. luckilyy larr eyh. entah ar jwak. and yay! todayy i met wandyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! gosh i mished him. saw him at mcd and i went straight to him. kedak biasa, konfem me salam ngannya. pelik da jak alip n xani diat. booh! so what? ehauheuahea. mish him mish him :'( and then i met mona and dhammm. they marah me ba cuz me x layan cdak first2. sumpah eh i din noticed them. ado ado. then met eikaaa. weeee. :P mished her so much!! and then met my sis amyyyyyyyyy *hearts* with lan. omaigod i missed alot of people! dangggg. :X seriously miss em all. and now im still missing my adek delie and bro apen! awwwww. *hearts&hearts* ntah bila gona meet him. adoi adoi. so just now sent azie home and we went to kenyalang and there, smoked a puff. ddammmnnnn. im crazy. ok ok this wont happen again ok?? and now, here i am! hahaha im really sleepy actually so get back to u some other time ok? lotsa lotsa love from me to you love you so much!! thank fod for everything im so happy everything was fine now. mwahsks!! :D

miss me? :))

2006-01-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

haha. thats right. kehakehka! lamak me menghilang dr mirc, ada jwak org pande bercarik! chesk. mished me lar tek ow? yea rite! wandy said to baby dat me dah sombonk and lupakkan sidak. chesk. biarlah. biar cdak rasa kehilangan like how i used to be. ya lah, time i was around, sik maok mena2 layan aku. kan dah sekda tok, pande nak bcarik. ish ish. yalah manusia! so much for my happy ending. :P baby contacted me today. me lambat reply pun alu nya anta kedit to me. akai nyak wai. i balit umah trus tido tek ba. ngaw ngaww!!~

this morning i tell ya, i was nearly stressed out! shitss. homeworks pressure from teachers. yabih, luckily i can handle em. if not, aiye! memang stress habis i tell youuuuu. matei keja ehs. told muiz to ilek. and he told me balit to ilek. shaken bah! :P kehakea but glad evythings ok now, i guess! well, not for long right? tomoro g skul gk. aiye. bencik alu jak eys! kimia sucks big time i tell yea! i kinda love addmath, esp when me paham. ekahkea. mun me x paham, nang mok knak sumpah seranah ya ehs! just now i infoED my nick. last seen was on 6th of january. mwahaha! ive been away for TWO COMPLETE WEEKS! =D bravo aiyeen bravo! haha. besh egh~ tere jwak i tahan. ngan fs n ms jak me mesti check bah. tunggu la da ada training lak. nang jarang aluuu la nak on9. chesk! aiye aiye. sedey mena eys! pa ka. mbak makan ati kali. bah bah. gotta run. i lebiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. :)

blow my mind

2006-01-19T15:43:00.000+08:00

shibaiiiiiii. im so fuckin pissed off right now. with wad? with this fuckin pc! sheeessssshhhh. suka na molah me meroyan lak ba. aiye. keep on closing the browser by themselves! shitty pc. i know soon this pc will explode! mwahaha. crazy thought of mine. as usual, just got back from school. weee. two more days then REST! woahh. but will be restin for only a day. aiye! x( shiity laa. might be goin to pustaka dis saturday. so damn byk homewerks i tell ya. huh. and this mornin? i was so fuckin pissed with alias the paloi teacher. gila cibaiii sial! ishk. donno wots his prob but glad at the end of the day, i had a great laugh with muiz and dawooz n lalink. hahaaa. its all about the teachers la. krezy ppl ey. :P owwwwwwwwww. mishedd my shayangg so much!! aiye. dono when will i get to see him. mamamiaaa. sedey lowr! dah marek sumbody reloaded for me ba. :/ still wondering who cuz at first, i thought it was jerie. but then i transfered five inggit to him, instead of complaining, he said thanks! :D meaning. that wasnt him larr. erk. sapa ndak kah gago2 elod for me ehs. makseh jak la hoh! huhuhu :P boh la pepelek jak ow? ngiaheiha. oh yea, nurul turns out to be in rd too. dis saturday ba perjumpaan ya. maksudnya, next week da start training. aiye. dah xda baju pj tok! fak fak fak =D mls mok g ehs. im craving for hotdog with cheese right noww. aww gosh x)) leleh aek liyo. tgh donlod photo editor tok. tadik da 70% ++ baa. celarken eyhss. tok tpaksa re donlod. baruk 26 ba. caken nessss! oit oit, my digi passwed is 7492 k! ingat yaa. bah bah. outie baby. mwash!!

amuse me pls?

2006-01-18T15:10:00.000+08:00

im friggin bored so plssssss. need sumbody now. awww but i dono who. geez. luff goin to school but not to study. haha! i wanna go to school to erm. to meet my friendss. yippey! =D owh yea, i just got back from school and yesh, bawoo pisang ba in dish house! dont really like it eyh. grrr. had an okay day i guess cuz yea know, time passes by quite fast for these two days. yeh yeh. haha. and me? no replying testy nor comments. awwww. how long can i stand this? i hv no idea myself! sheesh. adek finally greet me today. yapun cuz wanna borrow books. ngehehe. last nite went to miri port for makan hol. omaigodddd. i was searchin for phones signal luwar umah my udak ya with abie nurul n gjoule and yesh, looke up at the sky. YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU. the stars are so friggin beautifulllll. theyre everywhere! waa. so speechless! x)) wish sumday i cud watch them with jerie :P ngeeeee. chantek ba the stars! weeeeeee. besh besh! heaoheohea. and i found out, pot is clifford. ow gawd. bad bad me and pity pity him. tapi x pa lar! ehhehe~ the besday maybe if goin to be held this saturday and i MIGHT be sleepin over there. hope jadi lah!! boring me bah. :P ekekeke. mum just called. herm. im kinda tired yea know. homeworks some more. wish i can do them after this but dono why lar me mls alu bah! shitty eyhs. better sign out now yea? im bored! mish sumone teribbly. x(

need a wake up call.

2006-01-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

i just got back from school and yesh smell not good. :P din eat my lunch so i just had a donut. whee! im not on a diet ok? so many ppl refused to see me dieting. bla bla bla okayy. this morning went to skool and yesh, i din sleep! yay. :D cuz why? did my bio paper. sheesh! homewerks. ive forgotten about the essay. cuz last nite i slept around 1 cuz bz writing down the title of the songs for azie's cd. geez. im crazy. well, i guess my mood is fine now. had a short discussion with jerie last nite bout us. aww, its pretty sad cuz i donno. things turned out to be so down n yesh, sad. x( our promises and our swear. upon this life and our relationship. God, i do luv this one guy. pls do take care of him yea? x) so back to today. farhan visited me! weeeeee. i missed him hell much! he just sat in front of me and yeah like he usually does, he sakat2 and kaco2. woah. its been awhile since we last hung out together. i do mish that funny beshfren of mine. ow yea, ppl do change rite? :)) and eld started to talk to me and greet me and stuff like dat. haha. i guess my school life has just started since ive decided to keep away from being online thru mirc/ms/fs. ngehngehngeh! im trying hard man. those are my drugs. hakhak! during agama class, my head suddenly turned away from reality. im starting to think about stuff. yea, some serious stuff regarding my future. aww man, i do wanna live as his wife sumday. hurm. maybe all we need is courage, usaha & prayers ;) right? ngehehe. am i being ridiculous right now? nahh. im serious. haha! tonight gonna go out to miri port again. makan 40 if i am not mistaken. woah. i missed myera!! <33>

i wont stop!

2006-01-16T16:06:00.000+08:00

syg. :(
im sorry ..
i swear to god, i wont let u go!
stay wif me forever k syg ?
dont ever leave me.
luv u till heaven syg.
♥ jeRie

i cant stop writing. he told me that. i just read his comment. x( sheesh. why am i feeling this way? and this song currently playing! listen to your heart .. when he's calling for you .. :( what else can i do? i gotta let this all out right now. bloggy, be my bestie here pls. i dont want the others to know what and how im feeling. but what about him? does he really know that i do luv him? with whole-heartedly? this is getting difficult each and every day. he told me i need to change. i know i need to but i dont know how. will he leave me if i keep on being this way? i dont know. maybe this is just me. ohhhhhhhhhh! i missed all the old times. and im starting to miss all my friends from the past. omaigod, it is so obvious that everybodys changing for their own goods. omaigod! can i change? but one thing for sure is, i still wanna be his. only his pls. :D its like that i have no other spaces for other bois in my heart. no matter what and how sweet they treat me but i can feel that im attached to this one boy. can i believe? that ur heart still beats for me? aww syg! me syg u, tauk x? its not as easy as an abc to say these three words. it might be simple but not for me. i used to be so snobbish and arrogant and here i am, melting like an icecream. dont pity me. im glad i turned out this way. i just need jerie by my side. pls pls? i dont wanna be anybodys else gf lah. just him. all the things he said and did to me. omaigod, everything was so unforgettable. the day we first met! hhaha. it must be love at first sight and i admitted that tho i know at the same time, im hurting someone badly. :( then keeping in touch with him again, omaigod. when he was owez there for me to cheer me up. when he was owez there to say sweet stuffs to me. when he was owez there to loved and when hes finally mine and yes, i used to get easily bored by bois n their sweet talkings but with jerie? wawawawa. everything is so much different. i see no specials in other people. its just him making me feel this extra feeling. and i admit, im loving him more and more each and every day and will someone pls tell me, hes mine eternally? GOD BLESS US pls? x((

and there she goes ...

2006-01-16T15:56:00.000+08:00

booh! and here i am writing. :( im so fcukin twisted right now. seriously twisted that i think i gotta go take something to eat now. satt! okayyyy. having my lunch right now. oh wait, gotta change the song. gesssh! okie, currently listening to the fray. haha! first time la listening to them. sober voicess. hawt x)) oh yea, went to school this morning and hell it was friggin bored! i dono why but i was seriously down that i didnt talked that much. feels like time passing by too fast today and yet im feeling BLANK. boooh, why baby why? maybe too many pressure on me right now. im leaving myspace and friendster behind. i quitted irc few weeks ago but yeah, no one knoes. let it be. omygod, sayarindukanseseorangg! bangat2. :(( just met him last saturday. but aiye, only for few mins. owh! i shudnt haf brought him along yea? maybe he is not comfortable being there with me. aww, i feel so low right now. i dunno. some creepy thoughts wrapped with fears are haunting me these past two days. shitty! i must have my own mind back. why cant i just stop being so damn paranoid? omaigooodd. when i was in the physics lab this morning, i told azie that i wanted to let go of everything. but then i told her again, i dont seem to be able to do that! wieee wieeee, shayangku. me shayang u more than anything. dangg! help me pls? im losing my mind. i might kill myself. goshhhhhh! better go now. finishkan my lunch. mwachiachos =D

i dont want it this way

2006-01-15T17:26:00.000+08:00

seize the day or die regreting the time u lost its empty and cold without u here. x( i dont want this to end. not like this. not ever. why? what is missing actually? can someone just tell me whats up? is it me or is it him or is it us? when will i understand all this stuff? im loving him with all my heart and i know he does too. but something is missing. our promises? finally broken? but why? and why now? when everything seems so perfect, this is what happens in return? this hurt me so much. too much that i dont wanna know anymore. should i just go away and run? is this problem coming from me? i wanna love him owez. its not other stuff that i want from him. all i want is for him to love me back. thats all. that wont hurt bah. does that hurt? am i asking him a big favour here? whats the real matter anyway? im trying hard to understand and yet i cant understand any! i dont wanna see myself with other ppl. im praying hard that ill be only his sumday. and de day starts from today. God are u punishing me? when once i finally made my decision to change and now this is what i got? am i doing the wrong move? is this a crap? what am i talking about? does he really luv me? i believe he does. and i knoe he does. but will u hold on syg? will u?
or will u leave me here alone? x(

farewell 2005!

2006-01-05T20:16:00.001+08:00

its finally 2006! whoah. reminiscing all the sweet memories of 2005! omaigod everything was so complicated and yes, i know, quite fun i must say! :D whee. i celebrated the new years eve at home. waaaa, i didnt go out! pity pity me ey. :(( but whats nice was, there was a family bbq here at my house and most of my kazens showed up! even jerie & alip. ado! what hepen?? whuaa. the celebration was complete i guess. with em. hwuaa. walked with him. =D on da nite full of stars. fuck em that nite nak stars so many ba! and dak wandy showed up cun2 kol 12 camya. aiyee. besh egh! my first year celebrate with myshinta! mwahks mwahks sama dia. eh, get back to u later!!
i love youuu!!

farewell 2005!

2006-01-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

LMAO.

2005-12-29T18:47:00.000+08:00

cuz im the blade and hes just paper! :D hahhhahah. yesterday had a great day. i finally got to hang out with marsh! omaigod i tell ya i mish her fcukin much! uwaaaaaaaaaaaa. walopun sekejap. ill treasure dat moments owez. :(( tho xda kenangan. ado ado. then she went back and i spent the whole day with kayrun. i tell ya, dat chicka is freakin krezy! ahhaha. we went to boulevard hypermarket. ggeeezz, listen to me aite. we took one of the trolley and began shopping! hakhak. :D we DID shopping ourselves seriously. i was nervous but try to look calm and yeh, we did. ahha. then we leave the trolley sumwhere around the alley and went out. ahhaha. we were laughing our heads off. that was a memory to be kept. dangggg. that gurl! ahahha. mysinta x layan me marek ba. ya krun jak layan me lah. huhu. :P gila seyh. last nite went to miri port again. makan hol for the 20th day. ehehe. :P the specs ive lost? made a new one. in case i didnt mention this earlier. awww. skool starts next week. shits. im dead meat!!

merry xmas!

2005-12-26T16:10:00.000+08:00

hohohoh. merry kismes! hehe. belated i must say now! ahhaha. hwuaaaaarghhh! :D ahernya besday wandy berlalu jwak. and it worked out. ehe. me dah wish nya time nya di wonder. the first thing i did was wished him happy birthday the minute i reached wonderland. ehehhee. we collect ba smua tp leh dikatakan me plg byk kuar duit larr. ehuaheuha. there were sish amy, lan, alip, juwan, jerie, me, ayep, zani and of course bday boi, wandy! heehhehe. mereng mereng cdak ya. makan rah kepc baa. ehauheuaueaueha. i spent time with my sish marek. hwuaa. tp x lamak. sedey jwak. then smua cdak wandy went to follow juwan to his house so tinggal me apen sopy n jerie jak rah wonder. weeeeeee. got to spent time with my sintaaaaaaaa. :D hahahhahaha! lebb yu leb yu daling! mwahss mwahss! eheheuahueha. last nite went back home i went straight to my room. xda makan or minum apapa i got into bed trus. ehauheuah. then waken up by nurul, givin me her fonne around 11 plus like dat. wandy bok nak mdh thank you. ehhehe. leb you bro! :P ehehehhee. then had a short talk with alip and yes, went back to sleep again. and mok dekat kol 1, tbgn gk cuz jerie sent a sms to nurul soh me tdo. maka urg nyaman da jak tido eyhs. ehauheha. aiyo aiyo. so that means, i slept for almost 14 hours! imagine thatttt! ahhahahaa. besh egh. tok pun lom mandik gk eh. gila gila jak. adoo. thats all yeaaaa. doakan marsh tido ctok kelak k? yay! mwahss!! :D

typical today

2005-12-21T13:55:00.000+08:00

here i am, belom mandik gk ba. gney ndak ka. tp x bo tengong lar. wangi da jak me eyh! ekeekk. mwash mwahs. hal ya tek da settled tp turn out to be a bodo stuff cuz kk sik salah nak but nya jd mangsa keadaan ba. olo tedah ba. dak eez ya cam cibai jaek eyh. tak pujik mena. kwat mena la asa tek. wekk eyh. dak apa jak. :( ya susah jwak jd org gaok gaok belaka tok. mun bleh mok di tampa betubi tubi eyh. wad eber mena cdak ya eyh. mcm mcm jak. dis morning bah. orang gaji blkg umah mekorg ya lari dr umah ba. go ngadu to my mummy. aiye aiye. mcm mcm eh. btw, marsh coming to miri soon. harap2 this time jadi eyhs. hwuaaaaaaaaaaa. :(( ritok kali jerie balit miri. sik tauk jwak gk ey. aiyo aiyo. nabes me baa. ado. kuit lok. nak g mandek! hohok. :P

reckless abandon

2005-12-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

heres a funny post for you to read. i updated my fs profile few days ago and it turns out, ada urang terasa ba. olo tedah. ekahekahkea. its kinda funny u know how she changed her profile n shes like answer me back. haha. whatever. marly deleted me from her fs. whatever! hahaha. today. shieera called me. its about eez ngan eyda ba. n leyna too. ntah la x tauk jwak eyh. what i knoe is, wandy lep me! hahahaa. :P pa nak jadi jadi la. me n jerie pun i dunno tok. macam mok meet its end jak. sedey jwak bila di kenang. :(( i luff him so mash ba. first love ku tok ba. and i hope its a true love too. sedey bila dgr cita mona ba. aiyo aiyo. dah amy baa. suk alu kenal ngn me. haha. stuffs u knoe. im glad i knoe em all. mwassh! :P

yesterday

2005-12-18T18:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fine. :) i met kayrun! and got to spend my saturday wift her. :D yey. at least da temu nya. santek ba that gurl! mwahsss. :D we had a great time together. till i left her with luiz. hekhek. then i go rawon2 with wandy. mysinta in bintulu ba. :( daah la marsh x jadi kaming to miri. sedey alu jak asa ba. geram eyh. gonna mish her mo. bila ndak ka pat agak nya eih. hehehe. i mish u sho mash la dearr. :) hey! dono where i put my specs ba. went out yesterday without specs. ghee. my adek. kiut banget oo! :P no more tupey hair ngannya. dah la i ran away from bigboi yesterday. herm. i dono. me x comfortable ba ngannya. ngan adek delie bok lar me comfortable. erkss. i wanna go btu. pick her up! i wanna bring her here n spend time wift me. :(( i mishh her sho mash. next year dpt ka me nak ngabas nya? dah next year bz alu jak. dah la i have to ready aa jadual for my next years schedule. my hectic schedule omaigod i hate the sound of that. urgs. i need changes n i need back up. keke. dah marek me terkejut alu jak baaa. edaaaa ya tego me camya. ekeke. ingat la sapa hugged dr blakang. padu si eda ya tek. hwuaaaa. ekeke. nabes da jak. hekhek. mished hanna eyh! :'( omaigod. i better go take bath. bah! mwuahss. :P

fake tales

2005-12-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

got the response from DALnet. hahaha. bodoh! x( they said i identified to too many nicks at a time and tpp much try outs for the password. ekahekahkea. paling terok, nya pdh, the nick will remain frozen & u can be banned from dalnet. kemak da jak eyh! iskkkkkkk. sikpa sikpa. aku majuk dr dalnet towk. xmok masok gik. x dulik. huh. oh yaaa. marsh sik jadi agak ctok ba. :( xtauk eyh. nya pdh lom tentu gik. agikpun, she missed the wedding ba. hwuaaa. i misssssshhhhhh yewwwwwww so massshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. dah jaoh gik. :(( lagik the one nok i mished here pun sikpat di temu, boh gik nun d btu. tgu ar daling, if i can pujok my mum to go bintulu ujong taun tok arh! miri pun dah buhsan lorr. especially these few days. :( mcm xda org jak di kenal ctok. heeeee. my friendster pun me mls nak check. mypace telah lagik. alu di hide online now. ekhakea. cmok ku kedek ipet riya. i was online ba. he sent me message pi me x reply. bodoh. kakya marah org. sial menarr. bwehkkk! omaigoddd. lalink kuar ba last saturday. ukan pande madah! eeeeeshhhkkkk. he went out too. ukan pande madahhhhhhhh. chiahhh. whatever. x( aiyo. tonite gi umah kazen gik. lelah baaa. :(( dah ngutik alu siya. cibai eh. x tauk pahal panas ati tok. alu kuar klaka swak. oh yesh! the previous blog, i deleted em few weeks ago. wow. shayangs all the posts. but i kept em tight. huhuh. anco dah blog ya. penoh ngan sumpahan n seranah. uhuhuh. i guess, i'll be spending my left-over holidays crapping here! :P nurul ya paloi gilakk. isk. i deleted de mirc ba for the computer cuz u kno my mum yaa x suka ada benda ya in her pc. bia anak ya makey this pc mok chat. iskk. ada ku tampa lak eyh. iskkkk. x pwas ati. pakei la pc cgek nun oo! tok nak merusah pc tok jwakk. isk. tensen tok. ppl come n go ba. sibai alu jakk. :((((( urgh! boboi exsiden last week. apuu dekk. ya marek i did all the stuff for him. ato baju nya smua. tunang nya bz baa. pity my kazen. x lamak gik kawenn. uwaaaaaa. xda geng la kelak. :(( its me jak yg tinggal in our cousins. and abie. yeaa. hes sooooo lookin forward to get married. aku jak. cmok kawennnnnnnnn. ahahhahaa! cmok di madukkk. cmok jadi janda... cmok jadi baluuuuuu. cmok laki ku ada penyakit. cmok lakiku kemalangannn. cmok ada risiko xda anak. cmok ada risiko x ngam ngan mak mertuaa. hwa hwaa. ya ku pdh ngan mak aku. huh. kemerapuanku. biar lahh! i feel better this way. HUH! phark off marriages!! kehakehakhekhakea. maybe i watched tv too much. kenak influence oleh cita cita nok rumah tanggak ya. alu fobia. hahaha. eh eh, i got a "message" from HER. temeng eyh. ya bok x tauk malu nak message jwak kita gik. bodo! huh. im offf.

at LAST.

2005-12-12T12:33:00.000+08:00

i finally got to touch this friggin keyboard. yey! :P ergh. but cant be too happy. :( i still hv 4 more days. my BZ days. aiyer. angol eyh. last nite came home very late. kol bapa owh? mok dekat kol 1 camya baa. gilaa. ya pun dah asa laen. started on friday, the bzness kept on coming like a troop of bees. shitty. first, the funeral of my uncle. aiye! dat friday nang laen da jak asa. cuz yea, my uncle "went away" just before our families could mend the broken pieces back together. but YEAH. my aunty dah okie with my mum. after 15 years of "no-talking" relationship, ahernya sidak klaka jwak. woahh. sedey jaka asa. tp gney lar. so dat saturday i went to slept over at my kazen's house. which happens to be where the funeral & stuff ba. that was the ONLY DAY that i got to hang around with all my beloved female cousins. (well, not so beloved actually.) :P slept around 4 oclock cuz the crazy bois forced us to stay up late with em. to watch over the house cuz we heard some creepy & freaky sounds coming from downstairs. urghh. sik takut lalu! i tell you. i was laughing and whispering till jamal ngan awang (oh, dats de fake names i call em with) go "shhuushhh" me and asked me to nait. bwekk. gago dow. dah x kenal! huh. nyebok jakk. tampa jak palak lak eyh. lalalaaalala~ woke up that sunday morning by my cousin! weewitt. gilaaaaa. ensem ba nya k ju melayu n sabok. hahahak! pengapit baa. oh ya, that sunday was my kazen's wedding. wuhoo! bz bz bz bz day. i woke up early and went there and went here went there went there went here went omaifreakinGOD! tired as HELL. reach the dewan & the goes my aunts n uncles calling me to give out the stuff that we usually give during weddings. ahhh. papajak eyh. ngantok. and there comes the car. ahhaha. calie ba. my car di hias dak ya. there goes gjul n my other kazens. calling my dad asking for jerie. hahah. " cik cik! ne jerie? pa sekda pun? ya mudah pengantin tok lari!" cakaa. dah jwak time ya no mood at all. sheesssh. ya dat freakin jamal go played the kompang right to my earssssss. BODOH DEYK. urghh! x( then hafta follow my car pegi KSL gik. belah dak mpuan siya baa. yabey. lelah nak matey. on the way mok balit dewan belah mekorg tok, ya bok sesial ngantok eyh. urgh! sampey2 jak bok me makan. bekfes sekda semua sekda. bok makan lar that time. :P i wanted to go home so badlyy but my kazen told me that my mum wont be back till night. so i hafta follow my kazen back to her house in tudan. oh HELL i was freakin tired. sampey2 jak me terus tido. bgn around 6 oclock and saw myself stupid. they go put all my bracelets around me. bodo2 jak asa. huh. kakya g mandik gik, then kenak gi ke umah kazen nok awal ya tek cuz makan 3 gik. aaa, apa ya ar? tahlil la kira nak? x tauk jwak eh. bok ritok lar merasa d umah kedirik. WTF! ngiehaiehaihea. eh. i go eat lowkk. :P mwahs!